OK... so ..yup.. what can i say!? One week later and i'm already feeling better. First of all, the weather has been wonderful. Sunny days in the 50s & 60s, sights of greening everywhere, even a bee or two. sigh......

I will stick to this ... away from the computer thingy, it serves me well to do so. Once this keyboard served to save my sanity, now it's time to get and go another direction. It's like i am ... cultivating my own nature, which in return all else follows.

Talking about cultivating... i have been outside working up my yard, it's ready to begin a huge beautiful growing period... like Me. ;) This morning as i had my first cup of coffee, i had a pin and tweezers getting all the splinters out of my hands and arms. As soon as i burn my dry rakings, i can spread the ash around, get the beast out of the tool shed and start him up to turn the ground. Last year i think i walked through it... dumbfounded! Heck... i don't hardly remember it... but i do know i planted nothing. This year, HELLO!... I am here.

I have bought seeds already, planted my yard on paper, and going to have a salsa garden this year. Different kinds of peppers and tomatoes, i think i'll can them and sell them to the local store. I once did that at dad's stores... did good too.. cause it was good salsa. ;)

Right now under my coffee table is a load of books i have been reading... craft book, gardening books. I have a great book on green wood projects for the garden. All these patterens for different things...see.. how much i needed to walk away from this keyboard.. hmm... just need Balance! Anyways, I have all this fresh cut bamboo that i'm making into tellises, pots and my bean poles. Here..in just a while i'm going to cut the bamboo in different lengths and... i'll start creating! I feel alive....roars........!

I even have drawers full of my craft-everlasting flowers i dryed two years ago! wow... I have been in a fog for some time now.... lordy! Even found my bead and chain jewelry tools and things... too cool...Hello! :) Yup, just one week later...

I have been feeling lost for a long time now. It was unclear to me what to do, what needed to be done, how i was to act....Well, i want to be true to my nature, and i will remeber what is mine to be ..will come to me in time. I am cultivating my soul again.. a new life. By becoming Me again.