releasing some deep thoughts... huh.. don't ya know i think too much. half the time i am too intense for most folks. but ...whatever! kinda bented out of shape at the moment. bouncing around here..from wall to wall...... stop! breathe...

for awhile now i have been at a Gateway. been standing there was awhile too, right at the entrance. a few times i thought ohhhh... take baby steps through it ... i would get one leg lifted to take that step... and.. freeze! now don't i look silly! ;)

i know, if i don't move and act now i will miss great opportunity, i don't wanta do that! i think i know why i have paused... i keep reviewing the past.. not because i can't let it go..but .. i am looking at my own reactions, ...been looking into my dark corners of life lately. i see a wrong in me that needs to change before i go any farther.

i wish i could bear my soul of ...truths... but i can't. it's just me.... the way i roll, always beating around the bush thingy! so... can't go into detail about certain parts of my life and things that are causing me to freeze in mid-air. ...enough said on that shit!

anyways... i'm at the gateway... i have been comtemplating...waiting...reviewing through watchfulness. it is time to identify everyting that needs completion, things... desires i need to fulfill, or anyone i may need to say goodbye to.... let go, shed old skins.

it's almost like i need to walk through this gateway...empty-handed nothing needs to pass in with me!!!! maybe this pause was needed to review the past, the learning i have experienced... the joys, the victories and sorrows...Everything it took to get me here!

well i'll be.... i see.... I have observe it all, blessing it all and then i need to release it all, let go.. as i do here...little by little....and after this step is completed.... I can step through the gateway. hmmm ahhhhhhhh.... i get it. i have been taking steps.... the right ones too.... i always did get in a hurry...lol.. ok.

i do know ...when i now look back, its dark... and i turn and face ahead... only daylight is in front of me....i see a guardian at this threshold, gesturing me to move.... it's only a mirror!